My oh my, it has been nearly a year since my last post. And so very much has changed since then. To think that just a year back I was still plagued by almost permanent fatigue, spending a lot of time lying either in bed or on my sofa to rest. It seems like such a distant past, even though it is really not that long ago.
I never received a diagnosis from my doctor and worked on the assumption that it may be adrenal fatigue. However, considering the severe chronic pain that I also experienced in my muscles and joints, I ticked all the boxes for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome / ME.
For those that have been following my blog, you will know that I started my journey in November 2012 when I decided that enough was enough and I was going to do whatever it takes to get my health and my energy back. You see, I have always been quite an active and high energy person. So there was really no alternative for me other than getting my health back. FULLY. And that is exactly what I did.
When the Motivation is right – My Wake-up call
I had rested up for weeks to go to “Power to Succeed“, a free weekend event organised by Elliott Kay, aka The Coach in the Hat. It was a wonderful weekend and there was one exercise he had us do that really changed my life. He invited everyone to stand up, close our eyes and guided us through a meditation. At the end of that 10 minute or so meditation, he asked us to imagine looking at ourselves in the mirror 5 years from now if nothing had changed. What would we say to that person?
And there was one thing that came to mind immediately. And it was the only thing I could think of that I would say to myself in 5 years time if nothing changed – “REST IN PEACE”.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I have never been suicidal. I love life way too much. But I was no longer living it! And I realised right that second that something MUST change. On that realisation, I broke into violent crying (not the little teary-uppy kind of crying, but the proper snot and tears and uncontrollable sobbing sounds kind of crying). I had to leave the event. I was exhausted. I had become clear that for me, getting my health back was a matter of life or death. Continuing as it was could not be an option. And I was not going to be defeated!
And on to the “BOOM!”
I have always had a bit of a “WHATEVER IT TAKES” kind of attitude. If I really want something, I will not stop until I make it happen. In fact, that is part of what got me ill. However, it is also what got me better.
Over the last year I tried so many different things. Some things worked a little bit, others not at all. But I kept at it relentlessly. I had chosen life and I wanted to live mine again!
Gosh, to think that just one year ago, simple tasks such as washing my hair were unmanageable most days. Now I sometimes head to the gym twice in a day just for the fun of it. I stuck with the yoga, which has been so wonderful for me and am now finally hitting the gym regularly again for strength training as well. I am even thinking to do a Tough Mudder in May :-D
And that, my dear friends, is my “BOOM!”. It is the energy to do all the things I like. The energy to enjoy life and make it a hell of a ride. And finally go back dancing again as well, tearing up that dance floor like there is no tomorrow and with enough energy to get up the next day and do it all over again. Or going to have some fun in a kids playground, like I did in that photo. That was FUN!
Whatever you have been told, whatever your situation: DO NOT GIVE UP! The old Henry Ford had a good point:
Whether you think you can, or you think you can’t-you’re right
Those that have been told that there is no cure and actually believe it do not take the necessary action to get themselves better and hence they stay in that nightmare that is fatigue. But those who, like me, say “FUCK IT, I know I can do better!” they get better.
So DO WHATEVER IT TAKES and keep moving forward.
My love goes out to everyone out there still battling fatigue. Keep your head up and your eyes on the goal – you will get better again!